12/29

I will preface this by saying that I probably won’t be able to come up with 10 for yesterday. As a matter of fact, there is only one—all of my sister and her boyfriend’s presents were stolen from the trunk of their car. It was in there one night, no one saw us load them up because we did it in a completely different city, so it was NOT our fault, except for that we trusted the laws of probability and the goodness of man. Stupid us. Then, because of the thieves’ tampering with the car, the car will not start, so we have to wait around all day for that to be fixed. Fuck evil fuckers.

1. We eventually made it to San Diego. New Years is on.

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12/28

1. Slept waaay in. 9:00 AM!
2. Workout with Wii Fitness Coach.
3. Tiramisu
4. Beatles Rockband
5. Singing Sex on Fire on Guitar Hero
6. Playing the fake drums
7. All packed up for the road trip to San Diego tomorrow
8. San Diego Tomorrow with my sister!
9. Watching Seinfeld before bed.
10. Electric blanket and space heater in a cold, cold house.

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12/27

1. Slept in
2. Good early am workout
3. Saw little Tommy at the gym!
4. More family came over for a late Christmas dinner
5. Yummy crab spread
6. Yummy Rice Pudding
7. 500 Days of Summer
8. Good conversation
9. Good hair day
10. Beer

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How Soon is Now?

I can’t wait until 2010. I need to begin this now. Starting right this minute I will consciously be ignoring my instincts and doing the opposite. I’ll report back in 24 hours.

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12/26

Oooh. Tough one. Let’s see if I can do this.
1. Inglorious Basterds
2. 500 Days of Summer
3. Eli Roth
4. The guy at the gym and our sideways glances
5. Great, inspired run—8 minute mile.
6. Mongolian BBQ
7. Roku
8. Peppermint Tea
9. Overboard
10. Getting through this day.

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12/25

1. Christmas
2. Sister
3. Giving
4. Father
5. Rockband
6. Hisui
7. Bailey’s
8. Tempura
9. Wolfie
10. Home

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12/24

1. It’s Christmas Eve!
2. My sister is on her way!
3. I painted my fingernails … pink!
4. A Christmas Story.
5. Charlie Brown Christmas.
6. The best Christmas movie ever, Mickey’s Christmas Carol.
7. Homemade hot chocolate.
8. A workout with Maya—Wii’s My Fitness Coach.
9. Have 50 extra bucks!
10. Tomorrow is Christmas! I get to see my dad!

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12/23

1. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve—although it used to mean a lot more when I was a kid, I’m still excited. Could also be that…
2. ...my sister is coming tomorrow!!!!!
3. Cleaned the whole house! I’m ready!
4. Talked to my pops. We’re on for Christmas (but we got the same gift for my sister! Aack!).
5. Tomorrow is also the final check in day for my private goals, and we’ll see if I’ll be able to check that off as accomplished. Well, I already know I will because I already exceeded most of the goals, and hit all the other ones. But it’s still fun to have it be official!
6. Played Mario Party 8 on the Wii!
7. Walked for two hours at the gym -low key workout since I’m feeling like I may have a cold coming on- and watched Glee!
8. Because the gym was so empty, I got to try all the weight machines I always wanted to, but was too shy/in a hurry/they were occupied. Yay! And, they were awesome.
9. Baked some Cherry-Almond muffins. Not the tastiest ever, but I still love baking.
10. Discovered I really really like tomato soup with a little provolone and italian spices. Yummy! No sickness for me, thank you!

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Just saw this...

...have to do this. Brilliant. I’m ALWAYS talking about how I want to start drawing comics, and what better way to do it than in American Splendor fashion? Draw one panel to go with the mundane and the exciting not so mundane details of my day to day life.

Loves it.

Will begin in 2010.

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Yes!

I’m already a journaler (is that even a word?), and I’ve been finding my entries lately to be very stale. What a fun way to chronicle 2010—limited to one sentence summations. I will allow myself to expound emotionally whenever I feel it is necessary as I do use the journal as a tool to calm down my overactive brain, so if there is a night when my journal is less a place to reflect, and more a place to project, then I will allow myself that freedom. Otherwise I may not get to sleep that night. I think I will really enjoy this one if I can do it well. It’s almost like writing a haiku…hey, maybe I’ll allow myself that freedom, too. If on a day I really want to stretch my brain and be creative I’ll allow myself three lines, 5-7-5 syllable sentences, to describe my day. Oooh. Fun!

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12/22

1. Talked to my sister on the phone for hours!
2. Will see my sister in two days!
3. Got a lot of organizing done!
4. Day 2 of Christmas break.
5. Nappy
6. Saw my boy at the gym again!
7. Cheated and saw on Amazon.com that my sister got me the Twin Peaks DVDs!!!!!!
8. Listened to a lot of Conor.
9. Knew the Final Jeopardy answer—”Don’t Tread on Me.” Two of the three contestants didn’t know it. I win.
10. Tomorrow is Wednesday and I get to workout to Glee!

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If every instinct I have is wrong

then the opposite has to be right. In the year 2010 I will use the concept of the Opposite to guide my life. I’ll check in weekly to make sure it’s effective, but 2009 found me depressed, lonely, stressed, and very angry, so I would really like to start with the opposite of those. How to do that? Do the opposite. It’s easy.

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12/21

Piece of cake.
1. Found the battery charger for my camera that is quite literally irreplaceable. Yes! The power of deduction.
2. Organized all my clothes and have two donation bags: one for the thrift stores and one for my sister! Now my closet is less cluttered!
3. PAINTED!!!! Fuck me it felt soooo good.
4. Worked out and watched House. Perfect combo.
5. Organized most of the crap in my room—will finish tomorrow!
6. Listened to some old mix tapes that ruled my world.
7. Finally had some ahem private time. It’s very important.
8. Found a sweet picture of my old, now deceased dog from last Christmas. sigh Topped the tree with it. Made my damn day.
9. My U.O. order came in the mail…and…
10. My New Years outfit is complete and OH SO AMAZING! I truly can put together a smashing outfit. I blow my own mind. I can’t wait for the party.

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Test

12/20

1. Wizard of Oz
2. Hardcore workout
3. 5 more days until Christmas!
4. Organized my last semester, and put it away forever.
5. Paring down my big goals for 2010
6. Moved all electronic school stuff to a portable hardrive. To be put away forever.
7. My sister is coming in 4 days!
8. SNL
9. Yummy pasta dish.
10. My official Days off/vacation begins tomorrow!!!!

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Day 37

Because of all I accomplished last week, this week I pretty much stayed the same. But, staying the same is okay seeing as I’ve met or exceeded all of my goals. Well, except one, but it’s almost met, and I have four more days to reach it. I’ve got it. I’ve got it!!

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12/19

Wow! What a great day!
1. Last day of make-ups for my bad night of eating the other day.
2. Good workout, despite the crowd.
3. Dyed and trimmed my own hair—and it looks beautiful!
4. Rediscovered a pair of old jeans that still look boss.
5. Got a lot of work around the house done.
6. Made some yummy muffins!
7. My skin is looking refreshed and revived. Like it has never known stress.
8. A Clockwork Orange
9. Did my last little bit of school stuff so now I’m really and completely done done.
10. Only 5 more days until my sister comes!

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12/18

1. WINTER BREAK!!!!!!!!!!
2. Finished all my school work!
3. Ducked out a little early from work to exercise my control.
4. Did not talk to the bitch.
5. Brennan got an A++ on his math final, and a B on his art final!
6. I’m set to get all A’s for my semester.
7. Decent workout—the soreness is finally going away.
8. There’s an amazing gal at the gym who works her ASS off! She is totally inspirational, although she shames my meager attempt at ab exercises. Sheesh.
9. Started reading “The Pianoplayers” by Anthony Burgess.
10. It’s FRIDAY!

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12/17

Forget it! I just wrote a long list after my very negative day trying to spin the negativity into good, and of course, it’s a glass half empty kind of day because my browser fucked up and all of my writing was gone. So fuck it. Today I’m just negative and there is nothing more to say. Back to positivity again tomorrow I guess. Hopefully.

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12/16

1. First round of Brennan’s finals done!
2. Samuel.
3. LAST DAY OF MY CLASSES!!!! ALL A’S!!!!
4. Unbelievable abbreviated workout due to time constraints—400 calories in 30 minutes!
5. Beer.
6. Meeting with Gee went well.
7. Cookies, twix, and Butterfinger.
8. Alex’s eyes…
9. Lips…
10. Smile.

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12/15

1. 10 days until Christmas and until my sister comes to visit!
2. Three more days of work left—and their school-days are all minimum days for finals. YAY yay!
3. Only one more day left of classes for my school!!!
4. My outfit was cute today (“Are you a teacher?”)
5. I watched one of my boys perform in a Winter concert tonight. He played clarinet. It was very cute.
6. 190 calorie meal of Sole from Trader Joes. Unheard of. And so yummy.
7. Super-intense workout. Especially the weight-lifting portion. Yowza.
8. Heard from my old buddy from Oakland, Jose today.
9. Closed out another class tonight! Pretty sure I’ll be getting an A in there.
10. Zach is beautiful.

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12/14

1. Last week of work/school until January/February!!!!!! (a million exclamation points wouldn’t be enough)
2. I was a shoulder to cry on, a listener to a friend.
3. The 7th grade art teacher complimented my artwork (it is pretty fucking boss)
4. Revised all of my papers and finals due this week, but most of them were great as-is! Yay me!
5. Mr. Hart is super hot. I won’t see him after this term for 9 weeks, so that’s a bummer, but I don’t get tired of looking at him while he’s there.
6. Alex is beautiful, not hot, beautiful. I sit by him in class and it takes every bit of my resolve not to grab him and kiss him—his neck, his hands, his shoulder, his lips. They all cry out for my touch.
7. My final presentation for one class went pretty well—and that class is now over forever! YES!
8. Super cute outfit for me today. Dunno how I came up with it, but it was truly inspired.
9. Also, Alex has these amazing doe-like eyes that are so complicated and enigmatic. I want to deconstruct and analyze their beauty scientifically while at the same time taking a brush and paint to the canvas and capturing their numerous facets. sigh Nothing like a great face.
10. Peppermint tea (Larry).

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12/13

1. Woke up early, did my weekly goal check-in, and exceeded many/most of my goals!
2. SNL
3. Yummy Trader Joes coffee.
4. Early workouts are funtastic! Empty gym all to myself (except no cutie boy to motivate me).
5. After my workout, a young gentleman was flirting with me—and I flirted back! Totally not interested in him, but I picked up some good pointers for when I work up the nerve to talk to my boy, i.e. “How was your workout? Do you live around here? Do you like living around here? You’re dedicated coming on a Sunday. What kind of workout do you do? Do you have a card?”...and on and on.
6. A bustling library full of other students frantically preparing for the end of the semester, the air thick with stress and panic. Oh there’s no better way to feel a part of a community than at a college during finals. So much fun.
7. I got about 90% of my work done. One more take home exam to complete, and some screws need tightening on my papers, but otherwise I’m free and clear and under control. Like the acne medication.
8. Stuffed Red Peppers from Trader Joes.
9. Printed output from a looooong days work. So satisfying holding all of those words in your hands.
10. Feeling all prolific and whimsical when reflecting on a long, but very good day.

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Day 28

Holy crap! I already exceeded one benchmark today, which means I get to alter the goal to an even better outcome. I’m reaching all of the other goals as well, steady as she goes. I’m very proud of myself, and very excited that this method is working. I think I will make this short-term-goal process a new thing. I’m really liking the routine of it, as well as the weekly check-in rush I get. It’s like Christmas morning every Sunday. I can’t wait to wake up and assess the goal progress.

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12/12

1. Saw cutie-boy at the gym. He always makes my workouts more focused and intense.
2. My other computer isn’t broken like I thought. It turned on today! My music files are safe!
3. Got soooooo much homework done, and I followed my schedule to the minute. I am very proud of myself. I hope I have the same focus and dedication tomorrow.
4. Slept in until 8:00 AM! Woo hoo!
5. Got a Christmas tree, Charlie Brown-like, and made it beautiful.
6. Spent some time with moms. Although we bicker, she still is my mommy.
7. Bought a back scrubber, felt so good in the shower, but would trade it for Morrissey any day: “Do you have a vacancy for a back scrubber?”
8. Added another town to my list of maybes for when I graduate and move: Oakland/Alameda (again). I miss my old home.
9. Had a yummy power smoothie at Jamba Juice (although I paid for a medium and it turned out they gave me the small. Oh well! Less calories)
10. I’m halfway done with the final assignments for the semester! One more day of hard work tomorrow and I’ll be done!

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ARGH!

So, I’m seeing this guy nearly every day. I’m there nearly every day, and he’s there nearly every day. It’s killing me. He’s like my male counterpart. BUT I cannot find a way to even smile at him. Why? Three reasons. One is pride. He recently had the opportunity to do his cardio on a machine near me, but instead he chose one in the back. When I think someone’s cute I go near where they are. Second reason is that he always has his ipod on. How the heck am I supposed to talk to him if he’s never available? Wearing earbuds is like being in a totally different dimension. I know I don’t want to be bothered when my earbuds are in. Third reason is I can’t really tell how old he is. He might actually be pretty young. It’s so hard to tell because I know I look really young for my age, so it’s difficult for me to gauge other’s ages. Grrrr. None of this should be stopping me. I think he may be starting to take notice of me, but who really knows? Any advice out there? I am so useless when it comes to this stuff.

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12/11

1. Read some Walt Whitman
2. Painted some more today!
3. The Christmas party that I didn’t really want to go to was canceled.
4. 3 hour nap.
5. Bought some new boots, a cool tux jacket, new purse, and sunglasses from U.O. with my grandma Christmas money! YAY yay!
6. It’s Friday!
7. Only one more week of work/school before a nice 2 week break!
8. Got a weekend homework plan all ready to implement tomorrow and Sunday.
9. Got a cleaning plan for the weekend, too!
10. December 31st is only 20 days away!!! New years, here I come!

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12/10

1. Got to paint in Brennan’s art class!
2. B.B. got to see me without getting to talk to me. HA!
3. 3 hour nap.
4. Taco salad.
5. GREAT workout.
6. Laundry (nothing like clean socks and undies)
7. Vita-tops. Yum!
8. Finishd some HW
9. Orange-vanilla power smoothie at my gym.
10. Watching Baseball tonight, while running, with no sound.

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12/09

1. Played hooky.
2. Got a lot of homework done.
3. Returned my dress and found two beautiful new dresses to choose from! The one I chose is so unique and fabulous.
4. Got a needed extension on an assignment, as did the entire class.
5. This morning, before I had eaten anything, or let the coffee bloat my stomach up at all, I saw the beginnings of some abs, baby!
6. I liked looking at Alex in class tonight (and most nights). I think I have a crush.
7. Thought up some fun projects to do over my break from work and school. Lots of writing, painting, and reading!
8. My skin is starting to look almost radiant!
9. Made yummy cinnamon raisin bread french toast for breakfast.
10. A trip to Urban Outfitters for me is like a trip to Disneyland for a 5 year old girl with a princess complex. Happy day at UO!

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12/09

1. Dr.’s “G” don’t seem to hate me—so far.
2. I think I’m going to make this credential debacle work and be okay. Tomorrow is “Let’s Make a Deal” time.
3. Got burned, scalded really, by some hot water. Why is that positive? I dunno. Pain is good.
4. All my Christmas presents are wrapped and under the tree! Christmas shopping is over!
5. Found out that my previous student loan has been deferred since I’m back in school, so that’s 80 more bucks in my pocket this month!
6. Got my New Years dress in the mail today—hideous. Why is this positive? Because Urban Outfitters lets you return items in the store, so I can go return it for free, try on some things, if I don’t like anything in store at least I get an immediate refund. I’m down. Thank you, U.O.
7. Good, sexy dreams last night.
8. Hooky tomorrow.
9. As Merle Haggard said, “If we make it through December, everything’s gonna be alright, I know.” Only 1.5 weeks left until end of term/semester, and I’m on Winter break!
10. Wolf Kahn.

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12/7

1. Not as cold as I thought it was going to be.
2. Radical hairstyle.
3. Get to still be a part-time coach with the High School softball team. Basically a BP pitcher, but I’ll take it!
4. Mr. Hart still is hot.
5. I just google searched “mr. hart” and was relieved to find many other “mr. hart”s. He will not discover my secret crush (he’s married).
6. My body is starting to really take shape. I’m so excited! Next year’s goal of having defined abs is definitely a reality!
7. Really good workout.
8. Class wasn’t all that bad tonight—tomorrow and Wednesday are the real tests, though.
9. 2nd to last week of school—both work and school school! Yeah!
10. Credits from Netflix for movies they thought I lost that I returned! Yay more money!

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Another one

This one is not necessarily a knockout like the other two, but I see him just about every day. I go 6 times a week, and I see him at least 4 of those 6, and we seem to be on similar schedules. I haven’t gotten the best look at him, but every time he’s there I grow more and more intrigued because it’s like we’re the same types of people. I definitely think I’ll be able to make some moves on this one, if only because I know I will see him again.

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12/06

1. Flapjack
2. Met all of my private goals, and then some!
3. My arms are beginning to look very defined, and the strength is showing.
4. Got a lot of homework done (though not all).
5. Chose not to read certain e-mails. Don’t feel like feeling stressed.
6. Made a super yummy salad with strawberries, tangerines, and feta cheese. Yum yum.
7. Last day of dog sitting—no more late night barking dogs.
8. I dropped my laptop, but no damage was done.
9. I have plans. Lots of plans. I feel hopeful for the future, near and far.
10. Cute boy at gym. :) Made me smile. I will share it with him. Soon.

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Day 22

Holy cow! I did really well this week, and if anything was off-track, which I don’t really think it was last week, then it’s totally back on this week! I think by day 41 I will be completely satisfied with my progress and will be able to mark this goal as complete.

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12/05

1. Ate a lot of chocolate.
2. Had a super intense workout—3 hours!
3. Took a nappy.
4. Did a lot of homework.
5. Figured out a less-caloric way to make one of my favorite foods—Kraft Macaroni and cheese. Yum yum.
6. Slept in—relatively.
7. Facial
8. Blueberry Green Tea. Oh my lord. It’s good.
9. The band LMFAO. Jesus Christ I love their stupid song La la la, or whatever it’s called.
10. Thank you Beyonce for your great videos and songs that get me through my workouts. I want to learn those dances!

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12/4

Not much to today, but, I’ll try:
1. It’s Friday
2. Pretty good workout
3. E-mail back from my advisors made me stronger in my resolve to take complete control of my life. Take the power back.
4. Some TV time before beddies.
5. Yummy candies
6. Spaghettios
7. Bean and cheese burrito
8. I didn’t get sick (thought I might be this AM)
9. Free of softball coaching obligations.
10. Mason jar.

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12/3

1. Housesitting fun
2. CANDY!!! Almond Joys and Heath Bars
3. Great run—I am the Firestarter.
4. Good talk with my Ma this AM.
5. Registered for classes.
6. E-mailed my professors with my terms.
7. My body is looking better and better!
8. Doggies
9. Found out that I would have more money this month, therefore bought more Christmas presents!!
10. Cookies and Cream ice cream.

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12/2

Well, I already did something very very similar to this: list 10 grateful things for a month. I hadn’t felt that good before for a long while, and I haven’t felt good since it was over. I need to keep doing that for an indefinite amount of time—until the positivity becomes second nature. So, I begin again. Feel free to join me.
1. Brennan is the light to my day.
2. Got an A on the paper that sent me on my original downward spiral.
3. Found out some bad news: silver lining is that I’ll probably be less stressed out next semester.
4. Other positive spin to that bad news? It brings me that much closer to moving to San Diego and transferring to San Diego State.
5. My body is starting to show the work I’ve been putting into it.
6. My private goals are going pretty well.
7. 12 more days of work until Christmas Break!
8. 6 more days of classes until the first semester of my Credential program is behind me.
9. Christmas presents came from Amazon.com today—wrapped’em.
10. Glee!

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