Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Procrastination and distraction

Oh boy. I have not done a doggone thing to get my work done. I cannot focus. I just can’t seem to get to worried about it. I guess it’s going to have to be one of those last minute endeavors again because I just have no motivation without the stress of the due date looming.

Grr. And yet not grr. I’m not frustrated or worried at all. But I know I will be. In two weeks when it’s due “tomorrow,” I’ll be kicking my ass for today. But for today, whatever. I’ll do it later.

The Kid Nobody Could Handle


March 23rd, 2010

I am even more grateful that my student actually benefits from the hard work I’m putting in with him, and that he appreciates it. It brings a tear to the old eyes.

Distracted weekend

Procrastination is the only way I get anything done.

Monday, March 22, 2010

March 22, 2010

I am grateful that I have the patience to work with children with behavioral issues. Especially those who have general education teachers that have simply given up on them. I will not!

Sunday, March 21, 2010


Although I hate him now, and have for years, I was going through some old notebooks and I found this poem I wrote about an old flame of mine -- Alex. I thought it was pretty good, so I want to write it down. Listen:

It reflects in your face.
You look so prim and sophisticated
ready to rub elbows with the classiest of people.
You carry yourself confident
exude intelligence
Dark, worldly eyes scrutinize everything.
Oil slick hair draping your head, just kissing
your neck
combed and tamed.
Long arms extend into fingers of a pianist,
but they play me like a fiddle.
You walk tall on long legs,
carrying you proud.
But it's in your mouth that your duality
is revealed.
Closed lips form a perfect shape,
curved just so,
bent in all the right places.
And your smile!
The world alights with the surprise
of a clown underneath the poet.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

I work at a Junior High

Conversation ranged from whether I was Team Jacob or Team Edward to what my favorite White Stripes song was.

Friday, March 19, 2010

March 19th, 2010

I am grateful that I have the freedom and time to take a nap at 5:00 in the evening.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

March 18th, 2010

As Joey, a student with Autism, would ask, “Good day today?”

March 17, 2010

I did homework the entire time.

March 18th, 2010

Easy – I feel really good today. I like myself. I’m happy. I am very grateful for that and I’m not going to let that change.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Happy Face

Today in my Math Methods credential class I participated happily and was engaged rather than sulking and counting the minutes until the end of this ridiculous class filled with ridiculous people. It was a much brighter experience, and ironically (but perhaps predictably) the class flew by when I actually let myself enjoy it.

March 16, 2010

I am grateful that tonight a successful round of scrounging for quarters has helped ease my financial woes for this month. Yep. I’m that broke.


I thought I had accomplished this goal because I met someone, meaning that I was fixed. The opposite of my instincts would not be necessary anymore.

This is not so. I must begin again because I can feel myself making stupid and weird decisions again. No bueno.

Doing the opposite starting today!