Something (in the way she writes)

...considering all that I would give for a moment by his side.

To make love to him

be his love slave

Intoxicate myself with him.

Run my hand once through his hair, across his cheek.

Kiss his eyelids with my eyelashes-

forehead to forehead-

noses nuzzling

sharing the same atmosphere

whispering nothing to each other

hairs on my neck dancing with Electricity

our poles reacting to each other's bodies

chests beating with heartbeats pulsing

with a throbbing beat

feeding off of the other's rhythm

racing one another

hands automatically thoughtlessly removing all articles
interfering with the closeness
of our skin
Our pheromones making chemical reactions
unreported as of yet in any scientific journal,
but changing our biological makeup all the same.

Into you like a train...

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This is hard.

I haven’t even written about this yet, but I met someone who lives in Southern California, and I’m up here in Northern California. It’s going well so far, but it’s soooo freaking hard not to over-analyze the whole thing when they are that far away. We haven’t talked on the phone in two days, and no communication at all yesterday, and it really messes with your head. I’m seeing him next weekend, but I’m really struggling with my own internal dialogue that are creating all sorts of doubts and fear that are paralyzing me. Does he really want to see me? Is he already over me? Out of sight, out of mind? Did I say something wrong? ACK!! If I don’t hear from him today I’m losing it. Completely losing it.

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01/05

1. Brandon
2. Brandon’s skydiving video
3. Late night texts from my sister telling me that Brandon thinks I’m adorable.
4. Brandon’s call and desire to do Skype.
5. My stupid Webcam
6. Card from Brennan’s family—so effing sweet!
7. Response from SDSU advisor! Will call her next week!
8. Brandon’s E-mail
9. Brennan’s “Oh Lord” response to me still not being in Humanities with him. So sweet again.
10. I got straight A’s! 4.0 for the first time in my life!

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01/04

1. Woke up thinking of him.
2. Smiles enveloped me all day with thoughts of our time together.
3. I was back at work, but I wasn’t really there.
4. Not allowing this good feeling to fade.
5. All the kids were happy to see me.
6. Had a conversation with the Vice Principal that could’ve bummed me out…before, you know. The good stuff.
7. Had a change in my job that could’ve bummed me out, but again, the smile is on a loop. There’s nothing getting me down.
8. “There’s a light in the darkness of everybody’s life.” -Rocky Horror Picture Show
9. Great run tonight. Yowza. “Closer” is the greatest song to run to.
10. Oh, alright. I won’t say it again. Yes I will. Brandon.

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01/03

1. Brandon
2. Calling Brandon.
3. Listening to sappy music that I haven’t listened to meaningfully in a long while.
4. Workout—guy at gym no longer a blip.
5. Strategizing
6. Planning
7. Preparing for work tomorrow!
8. Brandon on the brain
9. He’s happy with my idea to visit in February
10. Feeling goofy about someone.

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Wow!

I just called my new love interest. I think this calling business will be the key to making this relationship work, seeing as it’s a long-distance one at the moment. Wowee, I’m willing to do anything. And I did well! I guess I don’t hate the phone as much when I’m talking to someone I want to. Tomorrow will be a good test because I have to call the San Diego State advisor about transferring to the school, so we’ll see how I pass that test!

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01/02

1. Brandon.

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